The pioneers that climbed Rocky Ridge also claimed many miracles along the way. In my commemoration of Pioneer Day, I realized I couldn’t let it go by without mentioning my own 17 Miracles that have gotten me through this far.
2. One time when I was pregnant with Daniel, on bedrest and generally unwell, I really wanted a coconut drink (we make these drinks out of young thai coconuts…).
Anyway, there weren’t anymore, and I burst into tears because that was all I could keep down plus I was 9 months pregnant and it was awful, etcetera. Well, my daughter said a prayer and went out to the garage where we keep our refrigerator and found a young thai coconut sitting on the shelf out there.
It was manna for this mother. It was my miracle.
3. Tetonia, Idaho is a miracle. It is one of the most miraculous places on earth and the only place fitting for my daughter to be buried. It is holy ground, and the people who live there are angels.
4. Joy is a million miracles all in one.
5. I am finding ways to be thankful on bad days–and I didn’t know I could do that.
6. I found out that I am severely depleted in Vitamin D and we moved to a place that has plenty of it!
7. It is a miracle that I have learned that I will not be what I thought I was going to be and it’s going to be alright. I will still be good enough as long as I do my best–even if it doesn’t look like what I thought it was going to look like.
8. The ladies who read my blog are miracles in my life.
9. My babies.
10. I have learned not to be afraid of traffic.
11. I am willing to change. That, my friends, is a complete miracle.
12. We have made it this far.
13. We’re going to make it a little farther.
14. When we were moving back from Australia to the States, we didn’t know how we were going to pay for the plane tickets for our family, so we prayed. A few minutes after we got up from our knees, the phone rang. It was the IRS telling us they owed us $5000 and where could they send us the check immediately.
15. My life–actually that I am breathing.
16. My brain–that it is functioning.
17. And finally, the SMeE. Yes, even though I am really offended most of the time and greatly dislike Mr. SMeE, I realize more and more each day that the SMeE will impact my life in more far reaching ways than I can see right now all for good. I am going to be stronger, better, more of who I was meant to be.
I realize each day that I know better who I am and I see with more clarity what really matters for me…I realize that so many things I thought I was supposed to do were so unnecessary and were cluttering up my time for who I really wanted to be–who I was really meant to be.
Right now, being unable to do anything has helped me to realize what I really need to put back into my life. So many things are not an option anymore–and that’s okay. I realize that I won’t even miss them. Sometimes I wonder why I spent so much time stressing over things that I now look at and think “What?!??!? That was so silly…such a waste of resources. Ugh. What was I thinking?”
I know I meant well. I know all those self-help magazines mean well. I know all those Pinterest people mean well. I know all those bloggy ladies mean well. And I know that all those home makeover shows and garden shows and cooking shows and do it yourself shows mean well…but–well, it’s just not going to happen.
The miracle is that I am okay with it.
Don’t get me wrong. I am not settling for mediocrity. I am not settling for a messy house or an ugly environment or something.
I love things to be clean and pretty and nice. They just won’t be amazing and impressive and a lot.
It’s just different for me.
Not so photo worthy.
And, I am focusing on our family’s strengths and my strengths. I am a writer. I am not a crafter or a designer or an artist. So, I am going to focus on that. I am not going to be interested in having more and expanding my kingdom, but in having enough and expanding our love for each other and everyone around us.
Like Thoreau, I realize that it does not take much to make a happy life, and like Thoreau I want this to be my greatest skill:
My greatest skill in life has been to want but little.
It hasn’t even been on the radar. But, that is how I want to be remembered.
The coming back from dying is a huge miracle, but the living afterward–that’s going to be the biggest miracle of all.