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you’re doing it wrong.

I recently realized something. I didn't notice before because, generally speaking, I believe I live in a musical wherein I am the lead (with the best voice), and everything is amazing and the so-called "strangers" around me at the gas station or the grocery store are...

making history

I am making history. And, I am not going to stop. No, I am going to keep going. It's hard sometimes to be a history-maker when I am in the middle of history. If only I had the benefit of being able to step out of time and go in the future and be able to see my history...

the death of winter

It's been unseasonably warmish here this February. The other day the kids wanted to eat popsicles outside. Okay, it's not that warm, but whenever my kids see a patch of blue sky and sunshine, if the temperature is above 40 in February, it's summer to them. And they...

the world is changing

The world is a different place than it was before. I don't know how I feel about that. Do I feel it so keenly because I am getting old? Maybe, I guess. But I feel it. I feel like time is less relevant, because it stops and starts and speed up and slows down...

vital records

Recently, we realized we had lost three birth certificates somehow. I am absolutely almost forty seven percent positive that they are somewhere in the house, but I knew for sure they wouldn't turn up until I got new ones, so I embarked on a journey to the Bureau of...

eight years

It's been eight years since Joy died. Most of the time it feels like it happened last week, or a few days ago...and sometimes it seems like it was another life, a watercolor in abstract. So, this year I have been trying to get it together again. Every year I think...

i forgot how big

So, I have a confession to make. My sisters and I love the movie "Joe Versus the Volcano." It's like we are in this little club of extreme geeks who are the only ones who will get it when we say blankly to each other, I have no response to that. Or I know he can get...

visionary

I watched a short film today about what appeared at first to be an insane person who was riding a bike on the ridge of this cliff and he climbed up a pinnacle with his bike--literally into the clouds. It was seriously insane. Don't get me wrong. There were some parts...

drawing misty

The other day I watched a time lapse video of someone using pastels to draw a portrait. At first, it looked stupid. And it definitely didn't look like a person. And if it hadn't been in time lapse, I would have quit watching, because I don't have a very high tolerance...

the first day of spring

It's the first day of spring here and I have thought a lot today about my perspective. You see, I think spring is a time to shake everything up. I don't believe in spring cleaning. I believe in spring purging. I believe in a grand and glorious and messy and sometimes...

i heart organizing

Just kidding. I used to heart organizing. In my mind palace (which currently resembles a WalMart at 11:55 pm on Christmas Eve), I still heart organizing. It's just that what I envision in the mind palace cannot exist in the temporal state of my home. I mean, I love...

have courage….

To My Kids: It may seem that in the midst of all the scary things happening, you are fighting in a losing battle. It may seem that people look at you and scoff at you, mistaking kindness as a weakness and mocking it into oblivion. It's not true. You see, there is a...

We Have Liftoff

I have a confession to make. Sometimes I am so not sure about this whole marriage thing. I mean, some days it seems like it is the most magical, wonderful, amazing invention that was ever created in the entire universe. Other days, well, not so much. I have finally...

the second star to the right

I was sitting on the chair in my bedroom at the end of the day and Daniel skipped in looking like he was about to be up to something. The other chair in my room was precariously close to a side table which was dangerously close to the bed. To add to the excitement, I...

this is my life and these are my teapots

Everyone wants to know what I have been doing to keep me from writing on my super famous blog lately. Well, grab some popcorn ladies (and gentlemen), and get cozy because you are going on a madcap, wild journey into the mind of a mad genius (me). Ready? Okay, here we...

beginning again

It's Christmastime. And I have decided it's a perfect time to begin again. So much has happened to me over the last six months. For one, I had my very last baby. It was beautiful and bittersweet and I realized I would have never stopped having babies if there was any...

eleven weeks and growing up (or not)

He is eleven weeks old. It seems like forever ago. I actually had a breakdown today. I just want to be normal again. I said to no one in particular, as I looked in the mirror at my haggard face and interesting body shape. I haven't bounced back, even though I really...

random thoughts about being sexy or not

I am all over the place with my thoughts today and I don't even know if I should attempt writing, but you all are my friends, so I will share my very odd and eccentric mind with you. I have been able to spend more time on Facebook this last week because I am on...