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bliss

I recently had a lot of people writing me asking how my husband and I make marriage awesome amidst multiple pregnancies and all the children. I have been pregnant and/or nursing for almost 18 years. So, I can say I have a lot of experience with babies and pregnancy...

last trimester

On Friday, I enter my last trimester of pregnancy, more than likely for the last time. It has gone by really fast, but that's mostly probably because I am old, and 9 months is not very long when I think that something that happened 5 years ago happend "just the other...

White Slipcovers

When I was going to move into my brand new home, I thought I would dare to dream a little. I have always, always wanted to have cozy, white couches. The kind that you can just curl up in and read a book and it feels like you are in a magazine. I have always wanted a...

On Feeling Awkward…

Mostly, I feel...awkward. You know, like I look at myself in the mirror and I think, "Okay, so now what?" I feel like I have decided to move on. Go forward. Sail the ocean of possibilities. But, I expected something else. I guess I thought I would suddenly feel more...

What Would Jane Do?

Not my Jayne. My Jayne would crawl into the pantry and eat goldfish crackers straight out of the box and get them all over the floor. And then she would look up at me with those cute pig tails and get away with it. No. The Jane. Ms. Austen, to be more exact. I was at...

victory

It's the beginning of a new chapter in the adventure called my life. Actually, I am starting a completely new novel, I think. After much consideration, I realize that I am just wrapping up book two in the series, which is the one where it seems like everyone is...

thank you, mr. whitman

Lately, I have been feeling like I am in front of one of those magnifying mirrors under flourescent lighting. Only instead of it being one for my face, it's a full length mirror. It's not pretty. I feel like I am not only seeing imperfections I was very well aware I...

glorious.

I am going on a date tonight. A movie date. And I am pretty excited because the movie we're going to see is about me. No, it's not about me, personally. I mean who could be gorgeous enough to portray me in a film? But it's about people like me. As a Christian, I have...

hello, september.

Hello, September. It's the 17th and I feel like I am just now realizing you have arrived. I don't know what I would do without you. I hate to say it, but the past few years you have just been a reminder that it's almost October. Almost Joy's birthday. Another year...

thanks, bishop and sister s.

My bishop's wife, Sister S., is a spunky, sassy, amazing, liberated, powerful woman. She runs probably like 100 miles per day. Pushing a stroller. Smiling. She went on a handcart trek when she was 8 months pregnant. And loved it. Like I said, she is a powerful woman....

what happened when i prayed

I recently wrote about how I was going to pray like I never have before for the Christians in Iraq. And I want to tell you what has happened to me since I began praying. The first thing I noticed was a feeling of absolute peace. I was driving on my way to meet my...

roar.

I just need to write about everything that's been on my mind lately. Very sad things are happening around the world. I think that's been happening ever since people had the ability to choose evil over good. In my faith, it is our belief that the children of God were...

dear new homeschooling mom

It's been a long time since I was where you are. Even then, 20 years ago, I was the oldest of ten and had been homeschooled, so it had always been part of my life. But, you, you are a pioneer. You knew public school wasn't right for your children. It may be right for...

are you a cast member?

Whenever I was "on property" (that's insider talk for being somewhere at the Walt DisneyWorld Resorts...), I would always get a thrill when people would say, Are you a cast member? Sometimes people wouldn't even ask that. They would just ask me where in the park I...

Y9

I am happily settled into my condo with all of my many loves so very close to me that I can almost hear all of them breathing at night from my room. Actually, most nights, they stay up far longer than I do, talking and giggling and goofing around until long after I am...

back to the beginning

I am back in Utah. Back to the beginning of when I started to really write. It feels strange. I think it's funny how I kept feeling like everything was different--but it's not Utah that's different--it's me who has changed. Going back to the ocean was good for me. I...

going north

I wish she would grow up. She wasted all her school time wanting to be the age she is now, and she'll waste all the rest of her life trying to stay that age. Her whole idea is to race on to the silliest time of one's life as quick as she can and then stop there as...

badger creek

The last summer of Joy's life, we spent a lot of time at Badger Creek, BYU Idaho's Outdoor Learning Facility. It's a 250 acre ranch in Tetonia. I always felt great there because it felt safe. Not like the other places in Targhee where I felt like bears were watching...