autobiography

my life, with artistic license.

eight years

It's been eight years since Joy died. Most of the time it feels like it happened last week, or a few days ago...and sometimes it seems like it was another life, a watercolor in abstract. So, this year I have been trying to get it together again. Every year I think...

visionary

I watched a short film today about what appeared at first to be an insane person who was riding a bike on the ridge of this cliff and he climbed up a pinnacle with his bike--literally into the clouds. It was seriously insane. Don't get me wrong. There were some parts...

drawing misty

The other day I watched a time lapse video of someone using pastels to draw a portrait. At first, it looked stupid. And it definitely didn't look like a person. And if it hadn't been in time lapse, I would have quit watching, because I don't have a very high tolerance...

the first day of spring

It's the first day of spring here and I have thought a lot today about my perspective. You see, I think spring is a time to shake everything up. I don't believe in spring cleaning. I believe in spring purging. I believe in a grand and glorious and messy and sometimes...

have courage….

To My Kids: It may seem that in the midst of all the scary things happening, you are fighting in a losing battle. It may seem that people look at you and scoff at you, mistaking kindness as a weakness and mocking it into oblivion. It's not true. You see, there is a...

We Have Liftoff

I have a confession to make. Sometimes I am so not sure about this whole marriage thing. I mean, some days it seems like it is the most magical, wonderful, amazing invention that was ever created in the entire universe. Other days, well, not so much. I have finally...

the second star to the right

I was sitting on the chair in my bedroom at the end of the day and Daniel skipped in looking like he was about to be up to something. The other chair in my room was precariously close to a side table which was dangerously close to the bed. To add to the excitement, I...

eleven weeks and growing up (or not)

He is eleven weeks old. It seems like forever ago. I actually had a breakdown today. I just want to be normal again. I said to no one in particular, as I looked in the mirror at my haggard face and interesting body shape. I haven't bounced back, even though I really...

bliss

I recently had a lot of people writing me asking how my husband and I make marriage awesome amidst multiple pregnancies and all the children. I have been pregnant and/or nursing for almost 18 years. So, I can say I have a lot of experience with babies and pregnancy...

last trimester

On Friday, I enter my last trimester of pregnancy, more than likely for the last time. It has gone by really fast, but that's mostly probably because I am old, and 9 months is not very long when I think that something that happened 5 years ago happend "just the other...

White Slipcovers

When I was going to move into my brand new home, I thought I would dare to dream a little. I have always, always wanted to have cozy, white couches. The kind that you can just curl up in and read a book and it feels like you are in a magazine. I have always wanted a...