I did not expect to really be using my one word for the year so soon.
A week ago, I was feeling a little sick–my ear hurt.
It suddenly turned into what looked like a stroke. And I sounded like Frankenstein.
I have no recollection of 18 hours of my life at that time.
And then I woke up in the ICU.
And I heard things like “cognitive reasoning struggles”.
Physical therapy.
Do you know what day it is?
And, really, in those moments you just realize what is really important and you are happy to be here, even though here is hard. It’s good to be here.
Ever since Joy died, I have felt like I have been hounded by the Spirit to live life in a different way–in ways that really matter, kind of seeing with the heart.
Seeing with the heart is exhausting and a foreign way to live. I wonder if I will ever figure it out.
I wonder why Heavenly Father wants it ingrained in my soul so very much.
I feel like I am a bit lost–slipped from my mooring a bit.
And then my husband called and told me he got in an accident with our car and some snow.
And I couldn’t handle that information. I feel like I have reached my limit for everything (especially antibiotics), and I can’t respond normally right now.
I need help.
I have gotten help.
My friend Noelle came and massaged my feet. I have very amazing friends.
My friends all over are praying for me.
I feel the help and I don’t know how much more I can be humbled.
I will probably go home tomorrow, and I am a little scared because I don’t know what I am going to do. Life is different and I am different and I wonder what it will be like.
And I hope I will make it, and make my life worthwhile because people have done so much for me. I am so grateful beyond belief for the amazing people in my life. Thank you.
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You’re wonder woman!!! Hang in there. Sending prayers and love.
Also sending prayers.
Is there anything a random gal who only knows you via the internet can do for you? I wish I lived close and could help. Wow what trials! I’ll hope and pray that everything will be OK. From reading your post it sounds like whatever happened didn’t addle your brain. ( : I still love the way you write, even in such a short post! Let me know if there really is anything that would be helpful that I could do.
I feel the same as Holly. Really, if there is anything at all a person from far away, whom you’ve never met can help, please share with us.
Ah, yeah… ditto Holly and Erin.
I hope one more prayer is always welcome.
Oh no! That sounds so scary! I am sending prayers Heavenward for you and your little pink diamond (and family).
Ditto Holly and Erin…if you think of anything a long distance buddy can do, let me know!!!
I just love you, dear Misty. Even in your difficulty, you said something in this post that I REALLY needed to hear. Thank you, sweet lady.
I will continue to PRAY!!!
Love,
Rachel
Praying for you and your family.
Oh Misty, I will pray for you and your family. I hope this doesn’t mean any harm to your pink diamond. Even in the midst of this trial of yours this post was what I needed to hear. I’m dealing with my own pregnancy induced ailments/ bed rest and life induced trials that just today seemed to push me to my limit. But my limit is NOT near what your limit is. Thank you for a few reminders! Long distance/ cyber love and admiration.
My prayers are with you. As others have already said, if you can think of anything for us out-of-towners to do, please let us know. Hugs, my sweet friend. And comfort and peace.
You poor thing!!! You must be feeling like your cup is overflowing with difficulties right now. This incident makes me very curious if you read “My Stroke of Insight.” Sending prayers to you and your family. I know that prayers are not for naught, but I do feel like I lived near you and could actually be of tangible help.
More prayers from me, too. I hope all goes well when you get home. There is lots of love at home and love is a good place to be. I hope all goes well, things may be different when you get home, but the love of your family and your cyber-friends will remain the same. I, too, wish there was something I could do from far away. If I lived nearby I would bring you a comfort (prayer) shawl to wrap around you so you could feel the love of people everywhere who are praying for you.
don’t you just sometimes feel like a little ship being buffeted on all sides by tons of waves? not that i can even begin to imagine what you are feeling like right now. i am so sorry, and i’m all worried and wishing for more details. but i also know that i’m just a virtual friend and it’s none of my business and so i’m going to do what is my business to do–pray my heart out for this awesome lady i know of that’s going through a hard time. i hope your husband is ok too!
Oh I wish I lived next door so I could bring you dinner and a hug… you’re in my heart and prayers.