motherhood

the last bastion of the renaissance woman.

the world is changing

The world is a different place than it was before. I don't know how I feel about that. Do I feel it so keenly because I am getting old? Maybe, I guess. But I feel it. I feel like time is less relevant, because it stops and starts and speed up and slows down...

beginning again

It's Christmastime. And I have decided it's a perfect time to begin again. So much has happened to me over the last six months. For one, I had my very last baby. It was beautiful and bittersweet and I realized I would have never stopped having babies if there was any...

On Feeling Awkward…

Mostly, I feel...awkward. You know, like I look at myself in the mirror and I think, "Okay, so now what?" I feel like I have decided to move on. Go forward. Sail the ocean of possibilities. But, I expected something else. I guess I thought I would suddenly feel more...

glorious.

I am going on a date tonight. A movie date. And I am pretty excited because the movie we're going to see is about me. No, it's not about me, personally. I mean who could be gorgeous enough to portray me in a film? But it's about people like me. As a Christian, I have...

hello, september.

Hello, September. It's the 17th and I feel like I am just now realizing you have arrived. I don't know what I would do without you. I hate to say it, but the past few years you have just been a reminder that it's almost October. Almost Joy's birthday. Another year...

thanks, bishop and sister s.

My bishop's wife, Sister S., is a spunky, sassy, amazing, liberated, powerful woman. She runs probably like 100 miles per day. Pushing a stroller. Smiling. She went on a handcart trek when she was 8 months pregnant. And loved it. Like I said, she is a powerful woman....

what happened when i prayed

I recently wrote about how I was going to pray like I never have before for the Christians in Iraq. And I want to tell you what has happened to me since I began praying. The first thing I noticed was a feeling of absolute peace. I was driving on my way to meet my...

roar.

I just need to write about everything that's been on my mind lately. Very sad things are happening around the world. I think that's been happening ever since people had the ability to choose evil over good. In my faith, it is our belief that the children of God were...

Y9

I am happily settled into my condo with all of my many loves so very close to me that I can almost hear all of them breathing at night from my room. Actually, most nights, they stay up far longer than I do, talking and giggling and goofing around until long after I am...

writer’s block

I love Idaho. God always sends me here when I need to heal. When I need miracles. When I can't go much further. I have writer's block. Some chapters are dark and dreary and need to wait to be written. Too lonely and unsure. I was supposed to be entering my second...

Here Is Hope

He who healed our sorrows Here was bruised and broken. He whose love no end knows Here was forsaken, Left all alone. Here despair cries boldly, Claiming this its vict'ry. Sweeter peace enfolds me: Hope did not die here, But here was given. Here is Hope. He who was...